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Sep. 12th, 2009

wired heart


Fanfic: Boy and the Ghost

Title: Boy and the Ghost
Author: Tamakuro18
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: Orlando Bloom/Gregg (OC), Orlando Bloom/Viggo Mortensen
Summary: Based on the song by Tarja Turunen, Boy and the Ghost. Orlando runs away trying to find shelter. When none is given, he goes back home to his abusive boyfriend.
Feedback: I'd love feedback. tamakuros_cousin5210@hotmail.com
Warnings: Dark!fic, Character Deaths, Minor Swearing, Unbeta, Urges to kill the author.
Disclaimer: I do not own the song or the actors. I do own Gregg though.
Author's Note: Yes, it's another dark!fic by me. Yes, I'm cruel. I hate neither Orlando nor Viggo. They are great actors. I'm just evil. The bunny was biting me and wouldn't leave me alone. So I cooked the bunny up and made this. (* * *) Means change of scene or time. Have fun!

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Aug. 14th, 2009

wired heart


Beginning of Rants

Ok so I've been thinking of doing some rants lately. The reasons being:

1) I don't really have anything to do for the fall/winter

2) I keep having artist and writer's block

3) I can't think up any good (dark) fanfics

4) I don't have my new laptop yet, so no writing in the story I don't have a writer's block


5) I just felt like it

Now rant sound a bit harsh (like all I'll talk about is negative). I'll be doing rants on what I like and don't like. Maybe if I do these rants, I'll get more friends. It's funny how I can make friends in real life, yet I can't make friends online. I'm just pitiful. Anyway... The reason for my reasons... I'm not going to start school until the spring semester (when my parents and I move north). I don't have a job and I don't have a license. I'm terrified of cars. The economy sucks. For some reason I keep having writer's block with all of my stories and fanfics. So maybe I can get rid if them with some rants. When I think up a fanfic, I'll be sure to post it. I'll be getting my new laptop in September. This laptop is a piece of shit that hates me. I have everything saved on a card (brainfart) and the laptop doesn't have a card slot. So I'm not going to be writing any of my story until I get my new laptop. Number 5 just explains itself.

Like I said before, I'll be ranting on my likes and dislikes. Each rant will be on one thing. No subject is safe! ... Well, most subjects are safe. I just had to bring the dramatics. I'll try to do one rant on a subject, but some subjects (ie. Twilight, Lord of the Rings, life) might get multiple rants.

I love feedback. I'm desperate for feedback. I'll love positive and negative comments. If you do post a negative comment, please try to lay off on insulting any part of me or my family. Religion is fine since I'm Irreligious. Anyway, comments saying I'm stupid for not liking something are just really immature (and not in a good way). If people actually read what I write and comment, I'd probably get loads of negative comments. I'm just stuck in the minority of liking what everyone hates and hating what everyone likes. I'd just like to know what you like/don't like, if you agree/disagree, whatever.

I'm not sure how often I'll be doing these rants. For now, I'll be doing them whenever I'm bored or distracted. Maybe at a later time (when I have stuff to do) I'll have a fixed... I'll be... *brainfart* can you blame me? It's two in the morning here and I'm not going to sleep until I'm in the car with my mum driving to KC. Anyway, Maybe at a future date I'll have... gah! I'll type the rants on a certain day of the week! There! I said it!

Just to know what you'll get yourself into, I'll write somew of the things I'll be ranting about.

-Lord of the Rings
-Slash Fanfiction
-Orlando Bloom
-Johnny Depp
-Pirates of the Caribbean

-Hannah Montana/Miley Cyrus
-Reality TV
-High School Musical
-Writer's Block
-Preps (in highschool)
-People's Insults
-People (in general)

-Jonas Brothers

Now you know what you're getting yourself into. I'll start the rant with Twilight since that seems like the most popular thing to rant about. I'll follow that with either Fanfiction or Lord of the Rings. I'll try to balance things out on the likes and dislikes. If you have a subject that you want me to rant over, just tell me in a comment or message. Be sure to expect the first rant in a few hours. Ta!

Jul. 2nd, 2009

wired heart


Fanfic: Vanity

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Feb. 18th, 2009

wired heart


fanfic: That's Just How it is

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Jan. 25th, 2007

light of the world


Do You Know?

When you make fun of me
I cry.
When you laugh at me
I want to be alone forever.
Just hating everything
Just hoping to disappear
And never be seen again.

Do you see how I feel?
Do you know how I act?
And when you do
Do you know what comes next?
So when you do
Will it be too late?

Just sitting here
Crying my heart out.
Just sitting there alone.
Will never come out
Even if I try.
Will never come out
Even if I should.
Locked up behind the door
From me and everybody.
Will never ever come out.

Do you see how I feel?
Do you know how I act?
And when you do
Do you know what comes next?
So when you do
Will it be too late?

Just keeping to myself.
Not telling about anything.
Just wishing to be gone
Gone from this whorld.
And that's what happens
When you laugh
Or make fun of me.

Leaving this world.
Just to disappear.
Just to say goodbye.
light of the world


everyday masquerade

I leave the house with nothing but a smile.

Everyday is just a cold world.

I go to school dreading the day.

I wish I had stayed home.

This mask I wear everyday

Is still strong.

This mask for everyday masquerade.

No one knows my true feelings

Because they don't try hard enough to see

This little girl lost in her memory.

Poeple now laugh at me

Because I'm not like them.

I have a broken heart

Chrushed in this everyday masquerade.

Now is lunch

My temporary escape.

I can now take off this horrid mask.

I'm just sitting on the ground

Eating my food and being forgotten.

I'm on the sidelines

Of this everyday masquerade.

I'm now going home.

I am walking alone.

People pass me by like I'm not there.

I'm going through this everyday masquerade.

I am now at home

Watching another fight.

My mask has been broken off.

I run to my room

My only escape.

I want to leave all this behind.

I want to take off this mask.

Then I need to leave this everyday masquerade.

I am now in bed.

The mask is off.

I'm thinking about today

And I cry myself to sleep.

I know what will happen

And I have to brace myself

For tomorrow might be worse.

I'm temporarily leaving this everyday masquerade.

For I'm meeting reality

Which is my dreams.

Jan. 18th, 2007

light of the world


(no subject)

well, we had an ice storm here in missouri. it lasted for about 4 days and knocked out the power constantly. my grandparents, sister, brother in law, nephew, aunt, and brother's friend have been staying at our house. my sister, brother in law, and nephew went home on monday. my brother's friend comes every now and then. my grand parents and aunt are still at my house since they still dont have power. i havent had school all week becuz some ppl dont have power. and wat's even better is that a snow storm is coming into town. it's starting on saturday and ending monday. and even better. there's another snow storm on wednesday! this is the worst winter weather that i know of. and today is the first day that we had the enternet back. gosh i hate winter. its too cold. oh well. todels.

Jan. 11th, 2007

wired heart


(no subject)

just saying this in case i dont get on by saturday since my computer's still busted...


that is all.

Dec. 25th, 2006

light of the world


(no subject)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dec. 22nd, 2006

light of the world


help me

today ive been feeling tired and depressed and bored. ofcourse this doesnt matter with my parents since they havent done anything when i said that i should be back on my meds and that was i believe over a month ago. i dont know what's wrong with me but i just feel so depressed and alone. maybe it's because of school. or its just because of the weather. i feel like a battle is over and im on the losing side of the battle. like all the stress from the finals which i didnt have to take has taken its toll on me. i feel like ive given up. can anyone here help me or something? i dont want to feel this way again and i dont know how to stop feeling this way.

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